There's a repeated theme in the book that the world is what the main character calls "harmonic." That even when the past has been changed, the world finds a way to put the pieces together again, in a completely different but related way.
The idea is striking to me, especially as we're going through such life-altering changes in our house. I've been thinking a lot about why my husband lost his job now instead of six months from now or a year ago. The simple answer is that now is when his company needed to do lay-offs, but for some reason I've been feeling as though it's more than that. I think it's the universe putting the pieces back together in a different way.
Today was going to be The Beatles turn for a lyric-inspired post, but they'll have to wait, because even though we are getting by with a little help from my friends, one of those friends chose today's lyric-inspired post when she posted Chris Mann's song "Beautiful Life" on Facebook in my honor.
It's perfect. It's more than perfect. It's harmonic.
Maybe my husband losing his job now is the one more chance left out in my soul.
Now is when our son is in the hospital and will be making the difficult transition back to home and school soon. Six months from now that will be done, no matter how it works out. A year ago we couldn't even have imagined we'd be here.
Now is when we need my husband here. Now is when we need our lives to change. Now is the fifth time we fall.
And the fifth time I'm gonna find a beautiful life.
1 comments:
You figured it out, cookie! Better to see the Universe as a giving place with an order which we may never fully know, than a punishing place. So many years ago, I got divorced, worked at a horrible job, lost a job, was betrayed by a lover, and on and on. At the time, each blow knocked me down and also took me to a better life. Now, after many years, I look back and see the perfection in it all. I assure you, you will too!
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